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[03 May 2007|12:40am] |
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I know I haven't posted in forever...
BUT!
I lost my job recently and I am in some financial trouble. Whether you really need a piece of art or not, considering it helping a friend out.
I am open for commission for concept sketches, character design, or whatever request you have. The price are as followed:
Original Concept Design (Pencil) - $25
Original Concept Design (Colored) - $50
Fanart (Pencil) - $20
Fanart (Colored) - $45
You can look at my work here: http://applu.deviantart.com/
Contact me via email: applutree@gmail.com
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| Ooooooohhhahhhhhhhhh |
[07 Mar 2006|07:20pm] |
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Woaw, I live.
Things has been pretty bizare lately, some stuff I'll talk about, some I won't. Anyway, to start off, computer science is a really weird major for me as I am sure it is weird to these tech junkies to art. One thing I noticed about the engineering students is that... they are WEIRD. They usually have the worse sense of fashion, little or no social skills, and mumbles. I am sure they are brilliant when it comes to programming, but when talked to they kinda shrivel up and die. This is the case since I am taking professional presentation with bunch of these goobs that involves team projects. I simply cannot get my message across. I fold, whatever.
Since now I am on my second semester of computer science, I can round up just exactly what I feel about it. First of all, programming is hardcore. So hardcore. Java is a bitch. When you think of programming is usually like, something does this, then something does that, etc. But what you don't see is the things that work under the hood, such as counters and just methods to make the programs run. The problem with me is that, these algorithm are really foreign to me. I am not too sure what to use certain things or when. Not to mention some of the most confusing syntax I just can't recall. But I still like it even though it's challenging, I just think this major has a big learning curve compare to others. I just have to. become. a. problem. solver.
I am also taking figure drawing class this semester. It's probably the saddest class I have taken in a long time. I mean... it's just that, seeing people's work in my class depresses me. In the sense that, these people are art majors.. how can they suck so much?
Anyway, things are going good so far except the comp sci part. I might end up taking that class again because I am pretty sure I am already failing it. Maybe taking it again would allow me to get used to all the structural style of learning.
See you like, next month maybe.
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| *Guh* |
[13 Dec 2005|01:44pm] |
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I caught a cold... 2 more finals to go...
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[22 Nov 2005|02:09am] |
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Oh, my, God. So stressed out.
Edit: While I am being whiney, I might as well continue.
I miss art to death. Recently, there's not a moment in time that I don't think about art. I keep telling myself once I get some time, I am going to sit down and just draw for a whole week none stop. But then I realized there's IS no time, not with what I am doing right now. I want to be awesome, not just mediocre. I want to have time to practice and feel like I am still progressing. Everytime I see other people's artwork, I just sink lower. Oh god, I wanna draw!
Thanksgiving is coming up soon, I will definately take those time to draw. Among other things. But for the time being I just need to survive these 2 days.
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| Weird dreams |
[03 Nov 2005|04:58am] |
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It's 4:50 in the morning.
Lately, I've been having a lot of vivid dreams. This usually isn't the case because I think I either rarely dream, or just don't remember. But these dreams just makes me wake up and kind of go WTF'mate!? They are not really unpleasant, but they are really dark at the same time.
I had a dream where somehow I travelled back in time to when I was junior in high school. I looked at my mom, she was young and beautiful, and the house we lived in was the first house we lived in when I was in kindergarten. I looked at her and just told her I have my memory since I am in college, and she's kinda just smiled and went "that's nice dear." It didn't really bother me because I knew I could use it to my favor. Then we were just doing chores like we always do. My dad was acting the same way he always do, doing chores then run back to watch football or something. It was really weird, I woke up from it, in fact about 30 minutes ago. It was so WTFish when I woke up in my bed and just kinda looked around. Er...?
Another dream, it was like the movie Sin City. I had scars on my face and was somewhat tough? I had to save this lady from being raped. So I chased these guys around the city trying to kill them. Then I somehow saved her, and she was all like... "I am in love with you! Please take me!" Odd things then ensues, I'll leave it to your imagination. This dream was really dark and messed up, a lot of gory images I could recall. I wish I couldn't because they are just messed up.
I wonder why I am having such vivid dreams. I'd just like to wake up without feeling like I got a hammer stuck in my head. It's just weird, so weird.
Oh well, back to studying.
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| Things I want but I'll probably never have... |
[27 Oct 2005|12:04am] |
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No money really sucks, especially when there's all these new things coming out when you can't afford them. I guess to make myself feel better, I am just gonna write it down. Perhaps one day if I win the lottery, I'll come back and get them.
1. An uber computer. Something that doesn't crash every few hours, have enough ram to run programs! (OMG) I can use it to compile programs, use 3D studio max, and play games. Such as WoW, Lineage 2, Half-Life 2 to their maximum potential. Estimated price: $2000
2. The new I-Pod. Holy cow, this thing is in color, it can hold 15,000 songs! Most of all, it plays movies! Not that I really need it to play movies, but damn it's so slick and delicious. Price: $300
3. PSP. So black and pretty, I'd rub my body all over it. So many cool games on the go plus emulators and junk. I just want it. Price: Roughly $300
4. PS3 and X-Box 360. Everybody wants them, this is a no brainer. It's not even out yet and I already know I won't be able to afford them. Estimated price: $400 each?
5. The new Honda Civic. So sexy, so hybrid, so energy efficient. Price: $14,000
6. Membership to 24 hours fitness. Work out whenever you want, however you want. Price: $70 monthly.
I guess I can only dream. I am not really materialistic, but these things are just so hawt and loveable. Oh well, I guess it's time to go to my corner and sob at my dirt poorness.
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| I am a depressing person, how did I survive? |
[10 Oct 2005|01:25pm] |
Holy shit mang, will bad things ever end!? Tired of my rant? Skip it.
Anyway, I went to my second job interview today and I thought I did really well. The lady WINKED at me, I assumed she liked me. I also answered everything prompty, I thought I was going to get this job for sure. (10 bucks an hour!) So about 20 minutes later, she called me saying she interviewed someone else, she's better than me... you are fucked. I am definately disappointed, but I am not upset. Life goes on, that's all I can say now.
Also, it turns out my car's distributor died. Whatever the hell that is. The part is going to cost 300 dollars plus labor fee with a grand total of $567. What am I am gonna do without this job? Life goes on.
So to sum it all up, I have the worse luck in human history. My goddess is the Goddess of Unfortune plus I hate me life and I want to die. :D
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| What a crazy week |
[09 Oct 2005|08:33pm] |
Judging from the previous two entries, I am pretty sure it's not hard to figure out that I had some crazy crap happening. However, that wasn't the end of it. My car broke too, like it just stopped in the middle of the street. I wasn't out of gas, mind you (even though it was dangerously low), ir just like totally stopped. Afterwards I tried to start it again and nothing would happen. It isn't the battery either since all the lights are still on. WTF, mate.
Good news though, I went to an interview this friday (with khakis and shirt and tie and all dat shiz) and I think I impressed the lady that's hiring people. She called me back later that day asking for a second interview while I was waiting for triple A to tow my car. Hurray! Oh, triple A took 4 hours to get here, it just shows how crappy my luck is.
So right now I am carless and have to ask my roommate to give me rides to school. It wouldn't be so bad if he wasn't such an ass about it either.
Oh well, life goes on. *roll eyes*
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| I screw everything up, HATE! |
[06 Oct 2005|12:50pm] |
I guess I am just a retard, I keep screwing myself over when I really can't afford to make anymore mistake. I missed a couple labs because of some miscommunication so now I am at the mercy of the TA. I really hate to be in these situations, I would like to think I am trying really hard but apparently not enough. I am screwing my grades up big time because of stupid mistakes. Not only that, I am constantly losing sleep making me do even worse. Has it really been that long since I came back to my university that I don't know how it operates anymore? I am seriously having a hard time getting all my work done already, I don't remember school being this hard.
I feel like I am not accomplishing a damn thing. I feel like a freshman when I am already a junior, this is the saddest thing ever. Just when I thought I got everything under control, I fuck up again. It has only been a month or so since school started and my grades are already fucking poor. I really need some advice on how to study for technical classes because it's obvious that what I am doing is not working out.
I guess it's back to the drawing board, I need to figure what I am doing wrong. Because if it keeps up at this rate, I'll probably end up dropping out.
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| Fuck this, I give up life |
[29 Sep 2005|12:34pm] |
I feel like utter shit right now. I pulled another all nighter studying for my computer science test not to mention 5 hours of math right before it. When I went to class and got my math test result, it just adds to the fire. They count off for the most retarded things like not labeling the x,y axis. By the way, just for that they took off 5 points. Plus bunch of shit I couldn't do on the test pretty much made the grade less than desirable. It's not like I am not trying, I really am, maybe I am just not meant to do this shit. But I rather not think that way since I really can't turn back at this point.
I am probably just cranky right now because I haven't had much sleep for 2 days studying for tests. I need a serious break and reorganization, it's only been a month of school and I feel like tearing my own face off. Goddamnit.
At this point pretty much everything pisses me off. I wish I am not so goddamn poor, I wish there weren't fire ants in my fucking room, I wish I have some fresh and healthy food to eat that isn't canned or microwaved. I wish my kitchen isn't infested with water bugs, I wish I don't have to clean up fucking beer bottles my roommates are too lazy to pick up OR DISHES FOR THAT MATTER. I WISH I DON'T HAVE TO PICK THEM UP AT 4 IN THE MORNING BECAUSE THEY GOT THEIR CAR TOWED PARKING AT A RESTRICTED AREA AND AT THE SAME TIME DRUNK AS FUCK!! I am tired of this shit!! This isn't fair!!
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!! I don't want to do this anymore!!
I need a hug.
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| I think I am going a little insane~ |
[22 Sep 2005|12:16pm] |
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Math is evil, I hate math, I really hate math. There was a reason I was an art major, oh yeah I am right brained oriented. All these technical junk is cluttering in my left brain that doesn't exist. Plus it's sad because I am definately trying, but holy hell I die. It makes me squeal like little piggy.
So I've doing math all week, like 3 hours a day. I thought I was in a tolerable shape, but when the test comes it all went out the window. I couldn't remember a thing, I think it's safe to say that I totally bombed the test. I hate my life and I want to die. :D
That's what's been going on with me. Math. Ruining my life. *listens to Linkin Park and replace all the "you"s to math*
If you excuse me I am gonna go into hybernation, don't wake me up in a year.
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| Advent Children |
[13 Sep 2005|06:07pm] |
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I don't think I've ever had so many oragasms in one sitting.
That is all.
Reply if you saw it.
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| Meh Gawd |
[29 Aug 2005|10:18am] |
Whew, I've moved into my apartment and it has already been 2 weeks. But since we still don't have internet yet, I have to use the computer at my school. Hopefully, I'll get my internet back soon, I am starting to go a little insane.
Everything is swell, it feels like moving back to the dorms again. But this time I get my own room and own bathroom. Booyahkah! It's kind of weird since a lot of people I know I lost contact with, so coming back to my university isn't as easy as I thought. But I think this is for the better.
Well, school starts again. I think it will be an awesome semester since now I get full control of my own life. Booyahkah!
Oh well, see you whenever I get internet.
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| Moving~! |
[18 Aug 2005|08:20pm] |
So tomorrow is the big day, I move to my apartment! I am gonna be sharing a 3 bedroom with 2 of my friends from college. It'll be great, I really can't wait! I can finally have some personal freedom without my parents on my back all the time. Oh man, I am so muy excited, my own place my own rules. XD
Anyway, I've been pretty busy. School + moving + paperwork + getting a job, it's so much fun! This is what a college student should be doing, huh?
Stressss!
I'll keep you guys updated.
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| Oooh! We love Katmari~ |
[29 Jul 2005|03:24am] |
I can not wait for this game! More Katamari! More rolling! Fun fun fun!
http://ps2.ign.com/articles/637/637179p1.html
+ The music sounds excellant. I am not sure if that's the in game tracks, but it's pretty cool. SO yeah, can't wait, can't wait! I bet this time they'll sell it for like 50 bucks though.
http://ps2.ign.com/articles/637/637401p1.html
I love Shadow Hearts 1 & 2. I thought the story is awesome and the setting was interesting. So I thought this would probably be a good game. But I don't like the idea playing as a little kid though. We need Yuri' mon!
http://ps2.ign.com/articles/624/624306p1.html
Oh my god! Makai Kingdom is finally out! I couldn't wait for this game! At first it was called Phantom King I think, and then they keep changing it's name. Whatever. Even though it's not reviewed yet, it's already out in the shelf! The dude that works at gamestop was like, "Duuuuuude, you gotta try it man, it's liek AWEESOMEZ" So I was like coo.
Can't wait can't wait.
Maybe I'll trade in my xenosaga games to get this one. But man, should I? I still haven't played the second xenosaga! It's still in the package! I am a sad person.
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[18 Jul 2005|07:24am] |
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It has been quite productive the last few days. I was able to draw stuff.
But one problem remains, I need to start coloring soon. I thought about strengthening my anatomy first, then do some value studies, THEN jump into coloring. But the fact that I am cranking out only pencil drawings kinda bothers me. Maybe it's a process I have to go through first, I think I am jumping on ideas a little too earlier at this stage.
There should be an arteest recoverage center.
Speaking of which, I think I'll attempt one last beggering before I go off to buy OC4. Does anyone use this program by any chance? CD Key? (This is futile)
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| Art |
[16 Jul 2005|06:57am] |
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Art has always been a big part of my life ever since I was able to hold a pencil. It helped me through a lot of hard times and it has been a release whenever I feel frustrated. I hold art very closely to my heart ever since I could remember.
Through grade school, junior high, high school. I've always drawn, just for the love of it. I'd draw every single day and practice with insane intensity. Even when I decided to major in art when I started attending college.
However, this is where it went down hill. The first year of my college, it was fine. I was doing better than I could ever do, it's probably a peak point of my art history. But after that year, when I was forced to do art a certain way and has to complete art projects on time, I've begin to lose interest in making art. I would feel so bad that I didn't accomplish anything for myself and be very depressed. It got to the point where I would avoid art entirely and be afraid to face it. I didn't know if I am up to the task anymore, I wasn't sure if I could ever create art like I used to. I didn't want to live a life where creating art becomes a hassle. This attitude continued on and on until I finally broke down and stop doing art all together.
Perhaps it's the twisted fate that has stored for me. A lot of shit happened since. Not good shit either. I've done a lot of things I wish I never did. Made some really bad decisions, wasted a lot of time doing a lot of nothing. As I look back in my art days, how I could just do art without thinking twice about it. Being happy and naive and innocent to just about everything. I remembered just how happy I really was.
But on the plus side, I've grown a lot ever since. I am definately not as innocent nor naive as I used to be, but at the same time I feel like a stronger person. I feel like I can face anything that comes at my direction as long as I put some effort into it. I feel prepared to get beat down again, but this time around standing up twice as strong.
Just recently, I've decided to change my major. As much as I love art, I don't think a degree in art, especially in my university, would do me any good. I've decided to become a computer science major in hope of creating games which is my ultimate goal. I want to become a good story teller, I want to express my ideas to everyone who may care, I just want to create a world only imagination can take you. That is my goal.
However, that doesn't mean I am going to stop doing art. The point of this whole thing is that I think I am finally confident enough to face art again. Since it's no longer my ultimate objective, I think I am gonna be able to create art without worrying about being judged or graded. Fuck communication design and fuck all the art programs at my university. I have to grab art back and hold on to it like a priceless pearl before overwhelming responsibilities begin to take over more and more of my life. Making art is my most precious ability.
This entry is mostly for myself and for the ones who supported me.
Art is back in my life.
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| Artage for all! |
[15 Jul 2005|08:37pm] |
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So like since I am pretty lame and stuff, I made an art journal.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/applu/
I am gonna be posting most of my sketches and concepts there. But it's going to be friends only because I am paranoid like that.
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| OMG Pictures! |
[28 Jun 2005|04:23am] |
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Me: I took my pictures! End of the world!
You: No you didn't! Think of the children!
OMG Indeed.
( Under ze cut )
Anyway, I am gonna go chop off that bush of a hair (with a weedeater). It's getting way too damn hot. Texas is a living hell man! Literally. Good bye hair... ;_;
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